Summer, College and Me

July 24, 2006

My summer has been busy, just the way I like it. I went to Oahu and the Big Island for 11 days with family friends and I got to see my grandma who likes to ask me the same question every 5 minutes of every day that I’m with her: “Knee yo may yo nieu poung yo?” That’s how you say it in chinese, in English it means: “Do you have a girlfriend?” To which I must sadly reply, “No.” But I love her nonetheless!

I’ve also been spending a lot of time with some entertaining people whose company I love. Playing basketball with Enoch, a great guy, in the church man-oven/warehouse. If you ever want to win, this is the person to play against! I’ve also been kicking it with Richard and Tim a lot, our humorousness combined makes for good fun. I’m very fortunate to have met them because I always want to be a better person around them. I also remember hanging out my car with 5 or 6 other guys in a Starbucks parking lot. I had to talk extra deep and act macho to reassert my masculinity after that but it was a riot!

College is almost here, and I can’t be more excited. I’ve already planned out which classes to take, scheduled what days and times my classes will be, and thought about how to transfer to UCLA. For some reason, I’ve always wanted to go there ever since I entered high school and I don’t know why. I want to major in general Economics and English, but I also want to try for med school.


The Female Code

May 3, 2006

Yes, you read that right.  Today, I will begin (though I will never finish, nor be able to) deciphering the female code. All males understand what I'm writing about, and if you're one who does not, then you are actually a woman. Here's what I've come up with:

A Woman's Language, translated to English:

Yes = No
No = Yes
Maybe = No
She's cute = She's ugly
He's hot = He's hot

Do you think I look pretty? = I look pretty, and you should say I do too
What's are you doing right now? = Nothing because you're bored without me.
I don't want anything for (my birthday/Christmas) = Surprise me with more than your empty hands.
What are you doing tomorrow? = Want to do something with me tomorrow?
Who was that? = Who do I need to kill?
How much money do you have? = How much of your money can I spend?
Do you think that girl is pretty? = You better not think that girl is pretty.
Call me = Call me or I'll make you cry 

A Woman's Behavior, analyzed:

Laughs a lot = Flirt with me.
       Watch out. These women will kill you by playing on your pride. Use the buddy system to stay above water and not drown in their flattery.

Glares a lot = I want to kill you.

       Watch out X 2. Travel in packs around girls that do this. You need at least four men. One to fight her off/hold her back, and three to run for help. I personally like to do the latter.

Talks to herself = I've heard of girls whispering, "The end is near" randomly…um…see solution to "Glares a lot." 

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Shaken and Stirred

April 27, 2006

Today, I randomly got out of bed at 1:52 AM, turned on my computer, and somehow navigated to the blog of a person named Jaeson Ma. OH yeah, I got it through a link in an email from Vivian Ni. Thanks!

I've heard a lot about this guy, from Sophie, Darrin (SJSU), Brian Park, and a whole bunch of other people. I couldn't quite figure out why they revered him so much; their eyes light up, their smiles glow, and they speak with happiness when speaking about anything related to this guy. I even have a few of his messages on my computer from Brian, but this is the first time I've ever read anything written by him.

On his blog, he talks about preaching out in the open, in the middle of the UCLA campus sometimes to no one in particular and sometimes to dozens of people. He talks about how he felt a spontaneous desire to carry a 7-foot cross to a place called "Bruin Walk" and start preaching and praying. Then it struck me: why am I never struck with such desires? I have never felt compelled to start randomly yelling in the rally court about God, or laughing because of all the great things He's done for me. What compels Jaeson, yet neglects to compel me? I feel shaken, I feel stirred, I am scared that Jaeson loves God more than I do. It's not good to compare the elements of Christ since we are of the same body, but I really have to wonder why I don't carry 7-foot crosses, 5-foot crosses, or even a pocket-sized cross to preach and share.

I don't know. I haven't figured out what it is that makes Jaeson move the way he does. Maybe God has called each individual to do different things, there will be one Moses, one Jeremiah, one Jesus, one Abraham, one John the Baptist, one Paul, one Jaeson, and one Andrew. But maybe there is a way to show my faith and my love more extravagantly, flamboyantly. What if I did all of the things that Jaeson did, would that prove that I have as much faith as him? There must be other ways, or are there? I don't know. At this point I only have questions but no answers, thoughts but no conclusions. I know that I love the Trinity as much as any other believer, but the question is, should I have to do these things to prove it?

How about you? Where do you stand in your faith?

A Time for Everything

April 24, 2006

        Today I found an old Bible a good friend gave to me after I accepted Christ. I thought I had lost it forever; good thing I found today, because God just slapped me in the face while reading it!

The particular passage is 3:1-8 (NIV), "A Time for Everything."

There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:

a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to

a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to
a time to scatter stones and a time
to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to
a time to keep and a time to throw
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

        The speaker is a son of David, and is most probably Solomon or someone speaking from his perspective. (Teen Devotional Bible 773)

        Recently I've been having girl issues and the passage above helped remind me that life is far from over! It's not that I forgot to do my hair or can't drive well…specifically I've been having an issues with girls and particularly with one. During the fall of sophomore year I was fortunate to be acquainted with a very special girl. We talked consistently to the point where I felt I knew her goals and values and she knew mine. She had all the qualities I find desirable in a person of the opposite s-e-x: focused and passionate for God, a healthy chunkiness, a childish spontaneous ebullience, the eyes of a gentle unbathed gorilla, and a heart to accept my shortcomings unconditionally. Holding her in such high regard made me realize that I liked her; I had placed her upon a pedestal in my mind like Gatsby did with Daisy. Jajaja, now that led to many embarrassing events in my life I am willing to die to forget!
        I've made many mistakes in my life, and this is another notch on that belt of accomplishments. In order the quell the uprising of feelings, I tried to limit interaction to nonexistence. Destroying something you love, especially a priceless friendship, hurts. But the Bible tells us here that there are times when we must kill, in order to live. At one point in his life, Abraham was asked to sacrifice his most cherished possession in the world, his son. Abraham chose to deny himself what he wanted in favor of what God did.         Selfishly, I failed to recognize the pain I would inflict on others as well as the path I would inconsiderately force this great friend to take. I am not 100% sure if what I'm doing is right biblically, logically or any sense, but for me this was the hardest thing to do; I've found that the hardest thing to do is usually what He wants me to do. Reading this passage makes me think I'm doing what needs to be done, because sometimes you need to break bones and set them in their proper place before they can grow correctly. Although it may not feel good, sometimes it's what you need to do. Learn to take enjoyment from the plentiful gifts that God has already given, and learn to be satisfied with what you have. That is the only way you will ever be happy, to be content with what you have; that is a part of the core message the book of Ecclesiastes is advocating.